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The Internal Alignment of Kim Seokjin


Subject: Kim Seokjin, born December 4, 1992 — Sagittarius

Performed: February 7, 2020

Original Post Date: February 8, 2020

Spread: Internal Alignment, original design by BlueMoonPunch

Deck: Wisdom of The Oracle by Colette Baron-Reid and The Linestrider Tarot by Siolo Thompson

Time: 2 hours

Details: The Internal Alignment reading is designed to showcase an individual’s current state of alignment with their Internal Energies such as the Higher Self, Soul Urge, and Soul Purpose.


Pre-Reading:

In terms of energetic imprinting, he has a port through Fire and Water (or just highly stimulated Water energy) that allows for him to be extremely receptive to inner guidance and the guidance of his Higher Self to the point that his integration process was the first to really come together and seemed to have the smoothest transition in the group. In all the readings I’ve done for him it has come up that he has a rather high awareness, a very conscious awareness, something that allows him to see the bigger picture in all situations but it is not something that he projects, he pretty much uses it for himself and that’s it, which is exactly what he’s supposed to do. Even with the cards here, there is this big show of control and clarity between the unconscious and conscious levels of the mind.

Jin’s core energy (King of Wands) is reflecting in conscious clarity and action (Ace of Swords) which is that clear thought-to-action kind of thing that tends to be indicative of someone who is allowing their soul to guide them purely through intuition and desire. The 3 of Pentacles is reflected in The Lovers where it is shown not only on a soul level, but on a conscious level, that there is direct action and effort being put into self-awareness, alignment, and communication. This lends to the higher perspective, vision, and understanding of The Sun, which illuminates aspects of the 10 of Cups, Strenght, and the Queen of Pentacles denoting success and emotional fulfillment along with self-actualization or fulfillment of the soul purpose as well as soul desire — what he has to do and what he wants to do in this lifetime, both being fulfilled simultaneously rather than one over the other.

I was also hearing the word “truth” over and over again, and when I focused on it I was seeing clouds parting from over the Sun. It was showing this aspect of his mental clarity that, in basic terms, allows him to see past bullshit pretty easily. Whether it be within a person’s character or a sketchy situation, he can usually see through it, however, it seems to be the same case where he keeps it to himself unless it is something that will seemingly affect him long term, or affect people that he cares about long term.

Again at the end there with the 2 of Cups and the Queen of Wands, there is this stimulation to Water energy in relation to Fire energy. I kept seeing this as something to do with Mars, but there’s also something involving Leo energy as well, but either way, it producing this system of intuition, or Water, fueling his actions in a very balanced manner. Water and Fire are the hardest elements to balance when they are functioning on their own without stabilizers within Air and Earth, so this shows a lot of self-awareness and self-control. Specifically, if you were to look at energetic imprinting through the birth chart it’s like Mars (or something in Leo) is actively stimulating Water on a big scale and then that stimulation is hitting his Sagittarius Sun or something in Sagittarius with his Sun that sits more in the unconscious imprinting rather than projection, but then it is projected through the Sun on a conscious level. 

Edit: Lol, I looked at his chart.

Jin has his Chiron in Leo which is in a trine to his North Node in Sagittarius, which is really fucking rad and interesting because that paints the perfect picture of how I see Jin. A North Node in Sagittarius puts his higher path in the realm of literally not giving a shit, kind of releasing the more methodical and sensitive way of thinking (“I have to be like this,” “people won’t like me if I do this,” “there’s no other way of doing this.”) and replacing it with a more open and free perspective, a “bigger picture” perspective. This is in the same sign as his Sun, maybe the same House, so it aligns this bigger picture perspective with his sense of self, his identity. Chiron in Leo shows a need for healing self-expression, learning to show and truly display the identity. These two systems are trining each other, boosting each other, and pushing each other forward. If we compare Jin’s confidence and general attitude to four or five years ago, we almost see a completely different person that garnered very different reactions from the fans. Only after he started expressing himself openly, being the “funny guy,” and really putting himself out there in a way he may have been embarrassed to before is literally the process of healing and getting on his higher path as it is laid out in his birth chart and in his conscious imprinting.

Not only that, but he also has a pretty clear Water Trine between Mars in Cancer, the Moon in Pisces, and Pluto in Scorpio, which… would really fucking explain the highly stimulated water fueling the Fire, specifically fueling action through the will of Mars. He also has a Yod forming between the Moon and Venus (in sextile) and Chiron (quincunx) which really sets the stage for a conscious level choice to heal that point in Leo with Chiron. In very simple and kind of stupid terms, it’s like the sextile of the Moon in Pisces and Venus in Capricorn is a port of self-love and self-care, and they’re kind of storming the waters of Chiron and Leo where self-love may not have always been present. So, pretty much, it’s like he was always meant to have that revelation or have that awakening of the self and not because someone came along and told him to, but because it was just meant to happen. Even if he wasn’t famous and kind of pushed to the edges of putting his real self out there as an artist, as a public figure and not just a model in a magazine or an actor playing a character, he would have still had that breakthrough. In a way, you could assume that he was destined to be known and seen on some level for who he is, and this is a major point in his development as a soul.

The Reading:

Where The Higher Self Is Guiding Him:

Coyote Spirit — Trust in divine detours.

This whole setup is kind of wild with this card here and all the others being in reverse because it’s showing a complete undoing of the current state. I was getting visuals of someone pulling a string out of a tapestry and line by line the whole thing is just unraveling. As the card suggests, it is a detour, just kind of shifting onto a side road but it is meant to eventually merge back onto the original main highway towards the desired destination.

There wasn’t anything specific visually or energetically about this, but the whole enlistment thing did come to mind as a detour within his current path. It’s not something that would bring an end to his public status or his career, it would still move forward but he would, quite literally, be off to the side. On a higher level, it’s a detour to his higher path. If you think about his North Node and Chiron and what those present for him in this lifetime, his time through his enlistment would take him out of the public eye and bring that performance level down to a more personal and contained state. He wouldn’t be performing for an audience, he would simply be expressing himself, making friends, letting people get to know him as a real person. 

In a “making the best out of a sour situation” kind of way, it’s like the time outside of the spotlight could help him to really see the layers of his own tapestry. By that I mean, this development of self-love and honest self-expression reformed and came to be his leading trait while in the spotlight, while in a constant state of performing for the public in one way or another. This detour could help him refamiliarize himself with his own personality, with his own way of being by unraveling the current state and allowing him to kind of weave it back together but in a more isolated and consciously aware state.

In addition to that, I was seeing points coming up around “love” and “acceptance,” so the detour could also involve developing new definitions for what acceptance and love really are. Currently, you could say a lot of the love he receives comes from his performance as Jin of BTS, as the funny guy cracking jokes whenever he can, as the older brother, but just him on his own, in a very casual state, isn’t really seen that much, and really it probably shouldn’t as “casual” and “display” don’t usually mix even if it seems like they could. So, it’s there’s potential within that detour for a refresh and reset to the system that would really boost him up for when he merges back onto the main highway. 

Conscious Alignment: Four of Swords (rev.)

OH, HOW INTERESTING. Deadass, the keywords for this card in reverse are, “awakening, rejoining society, leaving isolation.” That’s honestly so trippy because this kind of puts the idea of isolation in the realm of his public image, the public display, and “rejoining society” is actually equivalent to stepping out of the public eye. Very interesting.

Not only that, but in a more general sense, the Four of Sword, or the number 4, refers to foundational structures and with this being the suit of Swords, it’s relating to the mindset around certain structures. With it in reverse, those structures are coming undone, the tapestry is being unraveled, as is the mindset that accompanies the current foundation or the current tapestry. It almost feels like mental preparation as the person in the image is shown to be meditating, with their silhouette mirroring the skyline of the city in the background. It’s like they’re aware the city is about to crumble and they’re going down with it, so they’re calming themself and preparing to go willfully. 

This makes it feel like there is more anxiety around it though, this focus on mentally preparing for something to “crumble” as if it’s expected that this city, this foundation, or this tapestry will never be there again. On a more conscious level, if this is relating to enlistment or anything within his career, it could feel more like an obligation, therefore he doesn’t have a sense of control in the situation so it’s feeling more like the rug is being pulled from underneath his feet rather than he himself pulling a string from his own tapestry and undoing the whole thing.

In spite of the discomfort, there is still a willfulness to this, sort of choosing to keep his head up and perhaps not being too open about his fears or concerns.

How The Alignment Will Manifest: Six of Wands (rev.)

Hmm, hella vibe check bruh. Upright, the Six of Wands specifically pertains to publicly recognized achievement and fame, and in reverse, it points to failure and a collapse of a public image. It’s weird because that seems to be exactly what the anxiety around the previous set is like that’s the collapse of the city in the Four of Swords, but considering the intention of the detour, it feels more like this is supposed to just be… someone turning the stage lights out.

It’s such a complicated mix because this is how the alignment between Jin’s conscious state and the intent of the Higher Self will manifest, so depending on Jin actually perceives the situation can affect how it actually manifests on a more physical, and collectively recognizable way. So, the Six of Wands in reverse goes alongside the reversed Four of Swords but both carry two separate energies — one being the intent of the Higher Self, and the other being Jin’s perception of this obligatory detour.

I don’t think it would actually manifest as him kind of falling from grace in the sense of just not coming back into the public eye unless he himself pushes that into play through some kind of self-fulfilling prophecy based on his own perception of the situation and potential outcome.

How He Can Work With This Alignment:

The Hanged Man (rev.) | Nine of Cups (rev.)

Due to the weird and slightly conflicting state of the previous set, I chose to see how he would be able to better work with the current influences for a smoother transition, that way if any of you have similar issues it might be helpful to see how a more balanced state could be achieved.

Between reversed Hanged Man and the reversed Nine of Cups, they carry very similar energies, very similar meanings within this deck, but they are residing on different levels. It’s like The Hanged Man, the major arcana, is representing the Higher Self or the higher intent, while the 9 of Cups, the minor arcana, is representing a more conscious level for Jin. 

Upright, in a more traditional sense, The Hanged Man can represent a shift in perspective where you are able to see things that were always there, that you were always aware of, but from a completely altered state of mind that allows you to see beyond it. In this deck, it gives way to the more surrender-based aspect of The Hanged Man, the willingness to just move with that shift and just allow yourself to be shown what you need to see without any denial or judgment. In reverse, it shows a hesitancy or complete resistance to that shift.

For Jin, I was seeing this in a bit more of a complex manner. It’s like The Hanged Man is saying, “Hey, you aren’t seeing this the right way around, you’re not seeing what lies at the other side of the bridge, you don’t know what this detour really is,” and while it’s saying that, it’s showing odd image of thing bending, of foundations bending and shifting around personal perception. 

Specifically, what I was seeing was the image of the Rider-Waite Hanged Man sitting upright in the reversed world of this deck’s Hanged Man. So, a man suspended over a background of the Goldengate Bridge, similar to the image of the 4 of Swords with the person sitting with the citie’s skyline in the background — people sitting within these stable and seemingly unmovable structures that they now assume are going to come crumbling down. 

Within this image of the man standing upright over an upside-down bridge, I was seeing everything spin. It was like the bridge would turn over to its left and become upright, but in response, the man would spin to his right and become reversed. It became really erratic and both images were spinning really fast, going back and forth, changing direction, but always seeming to oppose each other.

It’s a little hard to explain as there were layers to this, but at the forefront, there was this message about the original state being the current state where the man, Jin, is standing upright in an upside-down world as if the world is not real. This then was connected to the idea of fame and this public image and how his perspective of this state being his world, being his life is not the truth, and this detour is meant to show him that, he’s meant to rebuild his foundations on the ground rather than in the sky, and then build up. I was shown that, obviously, if he builds from the clouds up he can only go so high, but if he builds from the ground to the clouds, and continues going up, not only does he go further, but his structure is actually more stable.

The issue seemed to be his perception of the clouds, the clouds being related to the love and acceptance that I mentioned earlier. Currently, his higher path is based on expression and the display of the true self, but as I said, this developed while in the public eye, so the love and acceptance is this hyper-stimulated and very unstable version of what he could receive with “real people,” as in people that he can truly connect with and build bonds with within this self-identification. He associates the cloud, or the fans, his career, his public performance with the foundation of his current structure, so it’s difficult to ee that this is just a tapestry being unwoven rather than a whole city being brought down and completely destroyed. It’s like, on a more subconscious, fearful, and emotional level, he sees this as his lifeline and he’s about to lose it and, therefore, is about to die, or fade into obscurity.

There is this awareness that his higher path, his best self is within performance and public display, so stepping back from that feels like he’s slipping back into an old self rather than moving forward into a more well-rounded version of the person he has grown into over the years. Then that takes us back around to the willful participation on a conscious level. He has no intention of going against the detour on a conscious and physical level, of course, but that subconsciously rooted fear is fueling that sense of destruction and that need to literally anticipate and prepare for that destruction, which is causing that weird split energy with the reversed Six of Wands.

So, while The Hanged Man here is trying to knock on Jin’s brain and get him to see what this could bring, Jin is hanging out in the reversed 9 of Cups. He’s dwelling in broken Water, dirty water, upset emotions and subconscious turmoil, which is really strange to see on him at this level, and I think it’s strange for him as well, which may be why he’s not picking up the purpose or the “brighter side” of the obligation to unravel that tapestry. The reversed 9 of Cups goes back to that sense of falling backward or falling down. Upright, the 9 of Cups is famously known as the “wish granted” card, displaying personal satisfaction and fulfillment, but reversed, it’s like all those cups were full, he had everything he wanted, and then someone came along and dumped them all out. 

Again, he’s seeing it as complete destruction and not a reformation. This aspect of The Hanged Man trying to flip the image is like his Higher Self trying to flip the image of the 9 of Cups, trying to really show him that he’s not losing anything in this process.

Lesson Being Learned: Two of Wands (rev.)

Another vibe check kind of vibe, bruh. I was seeing this as a reflection between the two Wands, tow Fire energies, two projections — one projection of energy from the internal world, and another projection that reflects the original in the external world. Basically, it’s a manifestation or showing how where he focuses his energy is where his experience and the perception of that experience will be. This goes back to that split Six of Wands where he’s anticipating total destruction and, in a sense, is projecting that potential out. 

Another interesting thing is how this plays out with the running theme that has popped up throughout the reading. First card out talked about a detour, one I likened to taking a sideroad that would eventually merge back onto the main highway towards the desired destination. The Hanged Man presented a bridge, a symbol of transition, perhaps one between the main highway and the sideroad. This card here, the Two of Wands, features a world map on it, overlayed into the background suggesting that the Two of Wands present a choice in traveling, choosing destinations, or simply experimenting by traveling everywhere. 

Basically, homeboy is on a JOURNEY. He is on the road trip of LIFE and his GPS satellite’s signal is being bounced off his own energy. So, while his soul is driving the car, the car being his conscious mind and physical body, he’s getting directions, like a map from his Higher Self, but his own anxious energy is causing the system to say that there are traffic jams and roadblocks on this sideroad even though there aren’t. Mixed signals. The soul knows better, but the body, the conscious mind, the car is like, “whoa, whoa, whoa, I could be damaged if we go down this road.” 

Obviously, a car is a car, it’s obligated to do what the driver says on a soul level and on a conscious level when it comes to enlistment or certain career moves. So he willfully goes, but he stalls out and causes some weird issue by preparing for damage that isn’t coming. The lesson in that is that his perception rules his reality, his position as either upright or reversed affects his experience. He might figure this out before the detour comes around, or it might be something he comes to realize after the fact.

That’s all I have for this one, thanks for reading! :)