A Past Life of Park Jimin
Subject: Park Jimin, born October 13, 1995 — Libra
Performed: November 23, 2018
Original Post Date: December 14, 2018
Spread: No Spread
Deck: No Deck
Time: 2 - 3 hours
Details: The Past Life Reading is an intuitive reading that pinpoints the most prominent past life that is influencing an individual’s current incarnation.
NOTICE:
*This reading is being featured as part of the December BTS Overload special and was chosen through voting.
The Reading:
As you might be able to tell from the image above, these readings can be a bit stressful as I get things in bits and pieces throughout the reading, and because of that, I never know where to start. I never know if it’s better to just follow my notes, or if it’s better to try and bring everything in as close to chronological order as I possibly can. I think just for the sake of not accidentally missing anything, I am going to follow my notes, but I’ll start with what I think most people might be the most curious about, and that is what other members are present in this past life with Jimin.
First, I just want to reiterate that when I do past life readings, I focus only on the most prominent past life that is currently influencing the current incarnation, and that may not always be the lifetime that occurred right before the current one. The influence of these past lives can occur through many avenues such as karmic clearing and ties, past life trauma, past connections coming into form again, and any lessons or experiences being accessed as knowledge and tools within a current phase or process within the current incarnation. A lot of the past lives of the seven members of BTS have carried over, especially through soul connection, but when focusing on Jimin, soul connections were quite a big chunk of energy that he carried with him. I assume his hold on soul connections was also very influential in this past life as well.
Now, I’ve explained this a thousand times before and people still ask me, but they’ve all had multiple lifetimes together. All the lifetimes they’ve had on this planet involved them coming together in one way or another. Not every lifetime was like this current one where they all met as separate beings (separate by family) and then stayed together. That seems to be extremely rare, but they have, in spurts, come together, two or three at a time, and then switched off here and there.
In this past lifetime that I will be focusing on, Yoongi, Hoseok, and Kook were present as souls and I found that a lot of this lifetime was carried over based on trauma even though a lot of it was healed and cleared out through the lifetime that came one lifetime before this current one. In the lifetime that I’m focusing on, which was at its peak between 1908 and 1912, Jimin was a woman, as was Yoongi. Yoongi was actually Jimin’s mother in this lifetime, and Kook was his brother. Hoseok, as he has been in more than a few lifetimes, was a romantic partner. They’ve come together and separated a lot between lifetimes and they still carry that energetic and soul connection in this lifetime. I even made a note of it in Hoseok’s Elemental Alignment, pointing out that the reason they dance so well together is because of that very deep soul connection. Quite literally, they flow well together in that creative and expressive state specifically because that is when both of them are projecting the purest aspects of their soul, and this puts them in synch with each other physically.
All very interesting.
Now, I’ll just start going down my notes and elaborating on the more significant points.
When I was first trying to pinpoint that signature of past life influence in Jimin’s core energy, I was experiencing a lot of pressure in my throat, it was giving me a really sharp pain in that space where the bottom of the threat meets the collar bone. My first thought was that it was Hoseok’s energy, just because he’s associated with the throat, the Throat Chakra, but sadly that was not the case. Hoseok was there, but his energy wasn’t actually in that space, nor would it actually come through like that even if it was.
Along with that pressure and pain in the throat, I was seeing these lines, something I see a lot when I do these readings. These lines show the ups and downs of someone’s life, how stable or unstable their experience was. In this lifetime, Jimin had a lot of ups and down that occurred externally. The most significant thing that I found was this issue between two men, one of which was Hoseok and the other was this random man who honestly just felt like he was only there to mess everything up for everyone.
(Just a heads up, I do refer to Jimin’s past self as she/her to help differentiate the two states.)
Once I touched on that, that was when I started to get audible messages, or what could better be described as audible signatures of this past life. It was like I was hearing what was going through her mind within this past life.
I heard her say, “hide them,” when I made a note of there being a lot of very, very strong emotions towards these two men. This was then followed by this feeling of needing to continuously turn my head to look away from what I wrote down, as if I wasn’t supposed to focus on it. It came down to this need to hide the bad, to only focus on the good. Hide the emotions, focus on the good, and pretend the bad stuff never happened.
I then started getting things about the random man being a good man, then it turned into that he only SEEMED good, and then eventually it was that he wasn’t good at all. At this point in the reading, I still wasn’t sure which man she was talking about, Hoseok or the random, but then I got something about him giving everything he had and her being “so, so, so, so happy” with him. This made it click that she was talking about two different men, one good, one bad. It was still a bit confusing as I was just connecting to energy signatures at this point, not something I could interact with or explore freely, I just had to listen to her and put the pieces together as they came.
In the beginning, I wrote down that I thought she cheated on a man who was good, and then he became bad because she cheated on him, but no, that was not it at all.
Then, something interesting happened. I believe one or two of Jimin’s Spirit Guides swooped in and were like, “no no, that’s not right.” I heard another say quite clearly, “one was a lover, one was a soul mate,” This has happened in a few other Past Life readings I’ve done, as well as other readings, where Spirit Guides specifically, not the regular Guides, will step in to help explain things, especially if it’s something based around trauma or specific matters and details that the soul, between lifetimes, chose to not carry with it into the next incarnation. After that, everything just kind of clicked and I was able to very clearly see what happened. It was shown to me visually, a very abstract display of lights and colors.
Basically, she was with one guy that was literally perfect. This was Hoseok, this was the soul mate, but because of the soul development, they were brought in with opposing qualities, very similar to how Namjoon and Yoongi, in multiple lifetimes, including the current one, had to have opposing factors such as their Pisces and Virgo cores in order to keep them from merging with each other. They had to develop separately, and in order to do that, Jimin was brought in with Air, and Hoseok was brought in with Water. Just like Namjoon and Yoongi, this energy carried over into this lifetime as well. They are able to stay balanced with each other through connections and oppositions of Air and Water.
So, she was with one guy, the perfect guy, but he didn’t really match her on a mental level, on a conscious level. There was that very, very clear and strong soul connection, but there wasn’t much going on to stimulate the mind the way someone loaded with Air energy would want. So, this new guy came along who was like… Air and Earth mixed together. Energetically speaking, he was this big ass dust storm that came through and blocked out the Sun, but for her, at the moment, she thought, “he’s just like me.”
There was a lot of abuse in that relationship and a lot of regret towards ending the previous relationship, however, it was made very clear to me that it was meant to happen. That need to seek out someone else was part of the soul development to break that connection and bring more separation to Hoseok and Jimin on a soul level. Both connections were fated, both connections were soul mates, it’s just that one's influence was more painful than the other.
It was at this point that I started to see where the energy was being carried over into this lifetime. I heard her say, “too much like me,” in reference to the dust storm guy. She realized later that they were a little too much alike in the realm of destructive and impulsive behavior. Although, I feel like this may be exaggerated, or a thought based on clouded perception as from what I could see and feel, Jimin’s past self did not really have these extreme qualities. I think there may have been a bit of mirroring happening, where she told herself so often that they were similar that when he started to display the more negative, she assumed she had those qualities too. Whether or not it was based on her actual traits, it was a self-jab she thought off quite often.
Another interesting thing that I saw was that Jimin, as a soul, between lifetimes, actually requested his higher Libra qualities due to this specific experience. He requested to be able to see into other people, to know them before really knowing them, so that he would not have to experience that kind of pain again. Even on a soul level, Jimin is very sensitive and can carry heartbreak and devastation with him quite heavily, which I assume is why his Spirit Guides had to explain some things to me, and why I was not able to freely explore this past life — he chose to cut off a lot of the residual emotional energy, but he did not block out the experience as a whole. Basically, if I were to be able to explore this lifetime as I usually do, I would get extremely confused as what I would see and hear would not line up with what I felt.
So, Jimin got what he requested, he got that higher, more developed Libra state, but it would seem that having it made it sort of cement the anxiety that he has toward himself and other people, specifically for how he is perceived by others. In other words, he perceives people so clearly that he assumes they can do the same, meaning he thinks a lot of what he is insecure about, on the inside and the outside, is on full display.
I talked about it in his Elemental Alignment reading how there’s something about his self-image that is based around the image of other people, and trying to match that vision. It’s hard to explain because it’s not like this is the source of his personal issues, it’s more like this matter is the soil in which his current personal issues were planted and able to grow.
While this relationship with dust storm dude was happening, it was very abusive, there was a lot of thoughts around wanting to run away, there were even thoughts towards suicide as a means of escaping the situation. She was almost killed before, and that was what that pain in the throat was. He would grab her by the throat a lot, and at one point, he had tried to strangle her. I was feeling that quite strongly and it was very visceral to the point that I was able to tell that the sharp pain was coming from him pushing the nail of his right thumb into that divot of the collarbone while pushing on the throat. Like… the fact that that energy is so clear in just a signature means that that is imprinted on the soul, that is where that past life trauma is.
A lot of this heavier energy ripples through to this current incarnation quite strongly in spite of his attempt to block it off. I was seeing the lines that show the ups and downs of a lifetime literally turning into waves and crashing into the next two lifetimes. I was also seeing that the “dark sun/light sun” thing he has going on, could be connected to this as the repressed soul trauma rises and falls energetically, but does not reach the conscious mind. Instead, it hits the subconscious mind and manifests as negative self-perception, aggravation, and a need for isolation.
This was when I started actually seeing where the other guys were. Again, only Hoseok, Yoongi, and Kook were present in this lifetime for Jimin. I did get a tiny, tiny, microscopic line that suggested that one of the other guys was present as a guide or spirit guide, but I wasn’t able to see anything about it or see who it was.
Yoongi was Jimin’s mother in this lifetime. I’m 99% sure he was still vibing on the Pisces energy. There wasn’t really a lot there with him other than that it was shown that she was a single mother, there was no father present, but nothing else about it was coming through.
Kook was there as a “saving grace.” That’s what she called him because at some point, maybe even multiple times, he had practically saved her life by showing up at the right moment, or making threats towards the dust storm guy. He was her younger brother. I was feeling like he was still a teenager in the peak years of 1908 to 1912, like maybe seventeen, eighteen, nineteen, somewhere in there.
In terms of how that energy carried over, it’s one of the reasons why they’re very protective of each other, why Jimin tries to come off stronger and more in control on Kook’s behalf, and why Kook feels the need to show Jimin’s best side at all times, while also struggling internally with how to help him when he’s in a low place.
Hoseok’s energy was the most prominent because of that soul connection, and because between multiple lifetimes, Jimin literally demanded that they be together. Jimin actually made quite a lot of demands for alterations to his incarnations between lifetimes, lol. In terms of how the soul body split, how their energy centers broke off into separate souls, Jimin was probably the most affected by the split, and therefore needed to have someone with him. And when you have two souls that govern over love and communication, they’re always going to want to be together as romantic partners. But of course, in order for the souls to develop separately, they couldn’t do that all the time, or else they would run the risk of merging and not developing well enough as separate souls.
So, this lifetime here in the early 1900’s was a place of compromise. Every lifetime that we enter, we do in fact sign off on everything that happens to us, good and bad, for the sake of development and anchoring ourselves. Yes, heavy and negative experiences and emotions are uniquely human and are what ground us in this reality. So… Jimin totally agreed to that negative relationship, it was something pre-planned, but his time with Hoseok felt like it was just thrown in there last minute. So, that energy is there, that very, very tight soul bond was there. And after this lifetime, there was this mess and I could hear Jimin’s voice as it is now just going off and being like, “how could you let me do that?” to whoever was in charge of their books.
Then that lead to the lifetime that I saw for Hoseok where he and Jimin were together again, and that was more in the 50’s or 60’s, and it was a much more pleasant experience, but it literally seemed like they were in their house and they never ever left. That’s not literally what it was, but that’s what it felt like because that’s what Jimin wanted, he literally refused to come back down here and do his job if he didn’t get to have another lifetime where he could have that connection with Hoseok.
...could you imagine a whole generation’s worth of ascension being thrown off just because Jimin didn’t get to love Hoseok and refused to go back into a physical body for soul development… would anyone be surprised?
ANYWAY.
So, she was in this relationship for, I assume, four years based on the 1908 to 1912 timeframe that was presented as peak years where most of that energy that was carried over was. When I was getting towards the end of all of it, I tried to really look and see where this was actually happening. I think within that four years she was actually living with the dust storm guy because the house I saw her mother at wasn’t where any of the strangling and whatever else took place.
There was an alleyway that was very wet, so they were in a place that rained a lot, or enough that she associated the place they were in as being cold and musty. They were in a densely populated area, and they lived in an apartment that you had to go up a fire escape type staircase to get into. They lived on the third floor and there was a window that looked straight across the alleyway at another building that was made of orangy-red bricks.
This was where I started getting the throat pressure more, most of the abuse happened in that apartment. The strangling happened on the living room floor while it was raining. I assume the rain thing was something that was associated with that moment, so maybe that’s why it was such a big thing that I had to notice that the alleyway was wet.
When I started getting visuals and physical sensation towards that moment where he tried to strangle her, I heard her say, “he’s not nice,” but like very casually, like she was just saying it to someone else rather than to herself. And then it was just this heavy, heavy feeling of being exhausted. It was just so horrendously tiring for her to be there in that space with that man.
And this was the bit where I figured out why she was calling her younger brother her “saving grace.” He had, a few times, but definitely that day, when she was being strangled nearly to death by this crazy man, he just happened to show up. That window was very important in that moment because that fire escape that they had to go up to get into the apartment passed that window. It was right by the door and you could see in from the fire escape. So, I assume her brother was coming up, saw what was happening, and busted in.
I don’t know if that was when she actually ended things for sure, but right after that, I was getting images, mostly just still frames cycling through of one or two more bad relationships that were also very negative and very painful on many levels for her. This really settled in that fear and distrust, and there was this visual that made it seem like she just stopped trying altogether. She stopped trying to be in relationships, she just shut down.
She died when she was around 35 years old, and there was this show of things being slightly better towards the end of her life as she had become very independent. She was happy with that, but it was a little bit conflicting because it seemed like she ended her own life. I heard her say, “it’s just time to go,” and it was said again like she was saying it to someone else, like it was something she said to someone around her. There was that tired feeling to it and I thought maybe she had gotten sick, and in a sense, she chose to end her life by not trying to get better anymore, but there was really nothing clear to that at all.
I was shown that when she died, her mind was very focused on her brother and the good soul mate, the one she chose to be with, and she, while still alive, specifically asked to be able to meet them again in heaven.
Then, when soul-Jimin actually got out of the body, he went on a rampage through the 9th-dimension and demanded a better go around.
It’s maybe not the best lifetime, but it was an interesting one to work through, and one that provided Jimin with the foundation and experience that he now applies to his current incarnation.
That’s all I have for this one, thanks for reading.
