The Elemental Alignment of Kim Taehyung (P1)
Subject: Kim Taehyung, born December 30, 1995 — Capricorn
Performed: July 1, 2018 (deleted August 12, 2018)
Original Post Date: July 11, 2018 (re-uploaded September 10, 2018)
Video Version Uploaded: August 13, 2020
Spread: Elemental Alignment, original design by BlueMoonPunch
Deck: The Wild Unknown: Animal Spirit by Kim Krans and the Rider-Waite Tarot
Time: 3 hours
Details: The Elemental Alignment reading is designed to showcase an individual's energetic alignment and balance with the elements, then compare it to that of that of the Higher Self's alignments.
VIDEO VERSION AVAILABLE
*The video version includes cleaner narration and “2020 Notes” to elaborate and clarify points made in the original reading in 2018.
This reading was deleted on August 12th, 2018, edited, and re-uploaded on September 10th, 2018 to accompany a new updated Elemental Alignment reading. This reading is meant for reference and certain information has been redacted to protect Taehyung’s privacy. — I didn’t want to change anything about this reading as that kind of fucks with the info so notes and removal of information will be marked to keep things as straight as possible and to maintain the original flow of the reading.
Initial Impression (pre-reading):
This was incredibly difficult to write out because my notes were so messy. Taehyung’s energy doesn’t vibe with me at all. He’s a Capricorn, I’m a Pisces, I kind of expected shit to be a bit tense, so… I did try though. Like, he was very welcoming energetically, open door and all that, but it was a very… Hannibal Lecter kind of vibe (that’s the only fucking comparison I have, lol) in the sense that it felt like he was trying to outsmart me, or that his core was trying to outsmart me. I really don’t know how to explain it, I haven’t really dealt with energy like his before. It was definitely an interesting experience for me. I’ll do my best to keep the “Initial Impression” part as clean as I possibly can but I definitely want to get all the information out so it might get a bit messy. The format for this portion also might differ from the others.
The cards wouldn’t shuffle — Right off the bat I was in his energy. The second I wrote his name and birthday down and had the cards out I was in it. Later on, I actually did get an image of a spider web, sort of alluding to how attractive his energy can be to people, how he can literally trap people in it, and that’s what this felt like. I was sucked in immediately. Because of that, I figured I should shuffle while I meditate on it and the fucking cards kept falling all over the place. They would either get stuck together or half the deck would just fly out all over the table. It was very aggressive energy, I was getting super annoyed with it.
Caps and Pisces don’t mix — So, I’m a Pisces, Taehyung is a Capricorn. On an energetic level, these two tend not to mix well when they are coming from the core (Sun Signs). I mean, I could write a whole fucking book on why that is, but I’m definitely saving that for when I do Yoongi and Taehyung’s relationship reading down the line. Basically, that’s why this reading was so fucked, our energy wasn’t mixing at all. Like I said, the door was open, I was invited in just the same as with the other guys, this guy… he’s got some shit in him that’s fucking scary and I feel like he made it scary on purpose.
Everything is red — His energy is red. I was not getting any other colors for him other than red, and once again, I think this was intentional. The thing about Taehyung, and Caps, in general, is that they tend to (sometimes unconsciously) only show people what they want to see — that’s why they tend to be so attractive to people. You only see the best parts of them physically and in terms of personality. They can also, in a very fucking evil fucking demon fucking way, show you things that will make them less attractive. I mean, that’s incredibly uncommon, but it’s like the “dark side” of Caps. They are social manipulators just like Cancers, but more strategic (?) with it. LIKE A FUCKING DEMON, Taehyung knows what you want to see and what you don’t want to see, and because my Pisces shit wasn’t meshing and because he knew I was there to find some shit out, see who he really is, he went all fucking serial killer on me because he wanted me to be as uncomfortable as possible.
The Visual of His Core — So, I haven’t really gone into a lot of detail about the visual of the core for the other readings, and I probably won’t after this because they really aren’t that important, but for Taheyung it was. Basically, when I tap into someone’s energy I literally knock on the door of their core (you can consider their projected energy as the open gate around their front yard) and most of the time, they’ll let you in. It’s just energy meeting energy, they invite you into their “house”, their core. I’m very visually oriented when it comes to reading, I see things way more than I feel or hear, so most of the time I see their “house”. Jimin’s was like this warehouse with all the lights off, Jin’s was a stadium, Namjoon’s was a field where the sun was WAY TOO BRIGHT, and Kook’s was a small castle with a moat around it where the drawbridge was always down. The visual of the core can mean a lot of different things, so I tend not to focus on it too much, just how I don’t really pay that much attention to how or why a person decorates their house in real life — it just doesn’t concern me, I’d rather just talk to them. But Taehyung was a bit fucking different.
First off, his “house” from the outside looked just like Kook’s, like identical, except it seemed to have a lot of windows and a lot of drawbridges, not just one, and rather than being made of gray stone, it was made out of red bricks. Like fucking RED. I figured this had something to do with their soul connection (they have the strongest soul connection out of the group —
UPDATED NOTES: This was my interpretation from before the Soul Map was fully fleshed out. Their soul connection is strong, but it’s coming from residual vibrational frequencies that they share from having been “split down the middle” the same way Namjoon and Yoongi were, except these two were not developed too much as individual souls. They’ve been brothers multiple times in their past lives as well. All of the soul connections are equal, as in the lines that connect them are all the same, but some of those lines, at the time, were stretched or jammed very close together which lowered and raised the vibration for those connections, making some appear stronger than others.
— but NO, that’s not why it looked like that. Out of everyone that I’ve read for so far out of the group, Kook was the most… hospitable? Like, he was waiting outside in front of the drawbridge, just waiting for people to show up so he could make a connection, and TAEHYUNG THE DEMON, was like, “Oh, I’ll do that too, that way I can fucking get her in here and scare the hell out of her Pisces ass.” — At least, that’s what I assume, I don’t actually know for sure. All I know is that the inside did not match the outside. Also, Taehyung wasn’t outside like Kook. I didn’t even see him until I was inside the “house”.
So, the inside of the house made the place seem a lot smaller, it was about the size of a typical 2 car garage and there were no windows. I honestly felt really freaked out and I started to think that maybe he just didn’t want to connect because, you know, that happens, it’s chill, but then there he is, just there by the fucking door. Like, I was inside in the dark, no windows, no nothing, and then there he is by the fucking door (THE CLOSED DOOR) just smiling at me. He literally didn’t fucking talk and at that point, I was so uncomfortable that I kept breaking my meditation to open my eyes and look around my room to make sure that there wasn’t actually someone behind me, like FUCK.
Literally, he didn’t say anything and neither did I, like I wasn’t trying to actually speak with him, but when you connect energetically, you know, if you’re thinking, you’re talking, and I was having lots of fucking thoughts at this point. After just fucking standing there looking at him with his creepy smile (it was just his regular smile but in this situation he looked creepy) I thought to myself, “What the hell am I supposed to do?” which seemed to prompt the fucking lights in this 2 car garage looking nonsense to turn on — the fucking lights were red, of course, so everything just looked even more fucking horrifying. Now, after the scary red lights turned on I did have a look around, didn’t have to move, there was literally nothing in there. It was just an empty 2 car garage with brick walls. Again, no windows, no other rooms, the only door was the door I came in, the one that was CLOSED, the one Taehyung was STANDING IN FRONT OF. SMILING ALL WEIRD.
I was very confused, spooked, not talking, but I thought “What am I supposed to be looking at?”, to which Taehyung seemed to respond by just leaning to the side a bit and tapping on one of the bricks in the wall, still fucking smiling and shit. This was a bit suspicious to me at first because they didn’t sound like a brick when he tapped on it, it sounded hollow and a lot softer, so I was like… okay?? So, I walked over to the wall to my left and I tapped on the bricks too, turns out they weren’t bricks, they were more like small cardboard boxes that had been painted red. How fun.
See, at this point I was actually really frustrated because I kept breaking my meditation, I couldn’t keep my cards together, Taehyung wasn’t saying anything, and I felt like I was trapped in this spooky little cardboard garage, and I really started thinking I was going to have another energetic attack (Go ahead and read Jimin and Kook’s relationship reading if you want to see how that shit goes) and so I just said to him, “The fuck is this shit?” to which he quickly and joyfully responded, “Faces.”
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…bitch??
Again, I was ALREADY spooked and this just made it worse. I really felt like he was TRYING to scare me and he was TRYING to make everything look and feel as creepy as possible. Just fucking picture this — you go to some stranger’s house and when you’re invited in you see that it’s completely fucking empty and they have red light bulbs in the ceiling lamps, and this stranger stays stood in front of the only fucking door out of there, SMILING AT YOU, and then proceeds to tell you that they built their house out of boxes containing faces… would you not fucking disintegrate into the floor? I almost did.
Later on, after some chill time, it started to make a lot more sense that the walls to his core would be made out of a bunch of different faces because… well… that is Taehyung. To explain, your core is where your energy stems from and you can kind of thinking of the walls of the core being the colored glass that the light of your energy shines through. For Taehyung his energy shines through many different faces, many different personalities, many different ways of being that are just kind of always there. Like I mentioned before, this is a common thing for Capricorns and, to be real, this tends to be why Pisces and Scorpio energy doesn’t mix well with Capricorn energy — Caps come off as disingenuous, shallow, manipulative, two-faced, or just plain fake because they tend to have completely different personalities for different people and situations as well as a huge focus on themselves superficially, all of which they tend to use to fit the mold and succeed. As the very psychic and empathy driven signs, Scorpios and Pisces tend not to vibe with that, they can even become physically repulsed by the energy (even if they are not aware of it) and it’s even worse when it comes from their core.
THIS DOES NOT MEAN CAPS ARE BAD PEOPLE, THIS DOES NOT MEAN TAE IS A BAD PERSON, it’s just second nature for him to be everything all at once, to the point where he is nothing at all. This makes his energy off-putting to people who are more receptive to it. That’s why people can find him so attractive — all the different faces are there all the time, and the one that intrigues you the most is the one that you will always see in terms of personality. In terms of physical appearance Caps tend to be superficially oriented, they’re usually very aware of their appearance and they know how to use it a lot of the times. Caps that know they are beautiful people will “know their angles”, they know how to pose, they know how to draw attention. Caps that have low self-esteem or low confidence in their looks will usually be very aware of people looking at them and will “act out” emotions, they will be very in control of their facial expressions, almost like they’re in a movie and they know they’re being filmed, this is where you can find that “manipulator” or “fake” vibe. I hope that makes sense.
Basically, Taehyung is a great actor because he’s acting all the time. He has a lot of friends in a lot of different places because he has faces that allow him to blend in well with them, while still having his real face and his awareness of his looks to help him stand out enough to be seen while “blending in”. BUT THEN, there’s also this tiny little speck in there somewhere that is fully HIM. It’s just very small and meant for people that are very, very close to him. Reserved for people that he chose, not the people that chose him.
UPDATED NOTES: Lordy… so that little piece of him is actually him, but all the extra faces is blown way the fuck out of proportion for him because of his own self-perception. I go into more in the updated reading, but it is like he shoved down part of himself because that part of him, his personality, was not well received. He was sort of “raised” to be very superficial, but it wasn’t intentional, no one taught him to be like that, but it was something he was conditioned into. Because of that, he expects people to have certain kinds of reactions to him. What he was expecting when he showcased his “real self” (that “alien tae” “4D” shit from back in the day), he was expecting to be praised the way he was praised for his face… but obvs, that’s not how it works. That level of mockery and people just finding him funny was way more than humiliation for him. This was very subconscious as well, there’s anxiety around it, but he has almost no real connection to his own emotions, like he doesn’t know why he feels like this, but he knows he feels right when he is being looked at physically in a good light.
In the simplest terms, Taehyung is whoever YOU want him to be, which is why so many people can find him attractive both physically and personality wise, because he has a great face and he’s capable of wearing the personality that YOU find the most appealing, and he can wear it well enough that it seems like it’s actually him all the way through. He’s perfect for kpop, honestly.
Soul connections are his only ties — The entire time that I was “mingling” with Taehyung’s energy, I didn’t really see a whole lot of energy lines coming in or out, meaning I wasn’t seeing any connections between him and other people. In Jin’s reading (where I first saw tiny bits of the Soul Map/Soul Body) his connection with the other members was so extremely vivid, and that included a connection to Taehyung, so I was weirded out that I couldn’t at least see one for Jin. Turns out there are connections, but they were in the boxes, as in, he has different faces for each of the other members and that’s where he establishes his connection. Again, it’s a very superficial kind of thing, very physically oriented, but not extremely emotionally oriented… but still energetic… I don’t fucking know, he has like 700 fucking faces and they’re all something different.
These are the faces/boxes he had for the members:
Namjoon - paying attention, follower, Namjoon might feel the need to always guide Taehyung
Jin - big eyes, kid, can’t take care of himself, not smart
Hoseok - sad face ( I don’t know why this was a sad face)
UPDATED NOTES: This was how he was relating to Hoseok at the time. He tries to relate to people emotionally, tries to overcompensate for his own lack of emotional awareness, because he is aware that he is lacking, by almost mimicking them. He, at this time, was seeing Hoseok in a low state, whether Hoseok was actually sad or just low in general, I don’t know, but Taehyung was mimicking him. This would have been around the time the low-vibe shit was still affecting Hoseok pretty severely, so those effects were happening with Hoseok consciously and physically (mood swings, anxiety, depression, physical illness, and discomfort). The other members, I have no doubt, were aware of this and Taehyung was trying to reach out in a weird way by trying to mimic him in order to understand. Like, seeing someone cry and thinking that if you frown you’ll somehow figure out why they are crying…?
Jungkook - mask made of mirror glass, twin, brother
Jimin - no face (I don’t know what the means either, the box was empty)
UPDATED NOTES: The box was empty because Jimin, with all his Libra-ness, reflects each of them. In contrast to Jin, who has an awareness of the lines between the individuals, Jimin sees the individual. He acts as a mirror for the others and that is why he is the one they all prefer to go to when they are upset. He gives them the sensation of speaking to themselves but with more objective and understanding point of view. Taehyung has no face for Jimin because it’s not really possible to play Jimin like that. He sees through it. He sees straight through to that little shriveled up Taehyung in the very core, underneath all of those faces and that scary Taehyung with all the red lights. This is also why they are so close consciously, but distant energetically. Jimin can’t connect with him the way he wants to energetically because of how blocked off Taehyung’s inner self is, but because Taehyung knows he can’t trick, lie, or play up a certain image or personality with Jimin he’s prompted to be more honest and open with him, thus strengthening that conscious connection over the energetic connection.
Yoongi - BIG smile, forced smile, (like he’s trying to get Yoongi to smile with him, not like he’s lying)
UPDATED NOTES: This was interesting because this was coming from a place of actually trying to connect with people who have an emotional understanding. Taehyung really is aware that he is lacking something — emotional and spiritual connection — but he’s not actually aware of what it is. That is why he tends to have all of these different creative outlets but doesn’t really express himself fully in them. He’s a photographer, but he mimics the style of his favorite photographer. He’s an artist, but he mimics the styles of classical artists, drawing from their works as a reference. He used to cut up his clothes and shit back in the day when he was still “alien tae” because that abstract sort of expression suited him best, but it is now associated with ridicule and rejection, something he isn’t okay with. So, he looks to people, subconsciously, who have these ways of expressing themselves that are praised by other people, that is looked at by other people, with a kind and appreciative eye because he thinks they are accepted. They are accepted by other people with their expression and he wants that too. Yoongi is someone he is very distant from, but around this time he was just starting to reach out to him, trying to get in with him because he wants to mimic him. He really, really is not aware of what he’s trying to get out of all of this, which is why it’s so frustrating for him and why he doesn’t share too much of his creative work outside of what he knows already looks good.
So, for the rest of this portion, I am just going to put in the rest of my notes copied straight from my notebook because I don’t really know how to put any of this in here in a neat way, but I feel like it’s best to share. A lot of this is stuff that kept getting repeated, some of it is automatic writing so it’s a bit jumbled, but take it as you will.
[From My Notes]
Like Jin but not - Cap + Sag (To understand that a little bit you can read Jin’s Elemental Alignment reading, I think I went into a tiny bit of detail about how Capricorns and Sagittarians sort of share similar energies and mindsets around the beginning of Jin’s reading.)
Those with a lot of friends have no friends at all. Ladder climbing.
Still very sincere when he needs to be.
Likes attention. Very childlike. He expects attention.
UPDATED NOTES: This is that “expecting to be praised” thing as well. It comes from that conditioned perception of himself as he only sees himself as being worth something when he is being looked at in a good light.
Extremely aware of himself physically. Aware of his physical appearance. Focus on outward appearance. Superficial. Uses it as a tool.
He scares me. Pisces and Scorpio can see this in Caps. Any empath can see how fake this is. It can put them off, leave a bad impression. Sun Sign energy is the impression. Cap energy doesn’t mix with Pisces. He’s trying though. Weird ass. Yoongi and Tae don’t get along. Side eye that hoe, lol. They are on very opposite ends > Tae putting on a show for attention, Yoongi doing something out of passion. Fights stem from there. He doesn’t take it as seriously as him. Tae’s passion is another face, it’s not real. They knew that at first.
UPDATED NOTES: Taehyung was really, really trying to connect with Yoongi around this time. It was like I was seeing a hand grab at Yoongi’s energy and just ripping parts of his energy out, trying to actually get a hold on some of it and anchor it in. The “he’s trying though” was confusing back when I was doing this reading, but this was actually in reference to the little Taehyung in the core. He was trying to connect, trying to speak. He’s the one that’s reaching out for emotional and spiritual growth and understanding. The other Taehyung, who’s like loaded with Earth and Fire, is very no-go with the Water shit, lol. He had a very push and pull sort of thing going while trying to connect with Yoongi and even while trying to connect with me. Of course, he had his conscious mind working with him when it came to Yoongi’s connection, so that worked out a bit better for him.
Taehyung has no passion for what he does, a lot of it is fucked from a place of being looked at and being successful. Copying the others. He’s not aware of this. He’s like Kook. He doesn’t know how to not be like this. Sag connect. That’s why they didn’t want him at first and he knows that. The mask of passion is for the other members, but it’s still about success and being looked at. He wants the attention. [removed information]. Compensating? It’s not as serious for him, but he knows it’s SUPPOSED TO BE > mask.
[removed information] > childlike wonder. A lot of enthusiasm for a lot of different things. A lot of different faces for a lot of different things. Too many passions to be truly passionate. He’ll do everything. Mirror Kook > he’ll TRY everything, Kook will DO everything.
Childlike in the way he expects attention, the way he gets attention. Put on a show, obvious. Obvious. Knows how to manipulate the first impression either projecting the energy of an innocent child who needs to be protecting, an annoying spazz, or someone who is simply there to be looked at, physical attraction. He chooses people by looking at them. Looks at them the way they look at him. Chooses people for social status. A lot of different friends in a lot of different places. A lot of friends, no friends at all.
Liar. He thinks people don’t like him. Has to be attractive, has to wear different faces because he thinks people don’t like him. Thinks no one will hear him, but knows they will see him. His appearance is his value. Doesn’t like it. [removed information]. Be seen and not heard. Doesn’t want to admit it, he’s hiding in there. Disappointing. Doesn’t want to talk about it. :(
UPDATED NOTES: That was the part that made me sad. Around this point in the reading was when I realized there was an actual part of him that was like crushed up in the core — at thought it was more symbolic at first — and that was the part that was trying to connect, but was also very afraid of being looked at, being judged, saying the wrong thing, making the wrong face. It’s almost like he’s traumatized by his own face and the fact that people look at his face, but again, it’s being blown way out of proportion. He’s so conditioned to see himself in a certain way and to bend over backward to fit what people want, wearing 700 different faces at once to please millions of people at once, that it looks like his inner-self has just given up and handed over everything to the Taehyung with the red lights.
UPDATED NOTES: I called him a liar because I thought I was still looking at the same Taehyung from before, but it wasn’t him. The red light Taehyung knows everyone likes him, knows that everyone finds him attractive, is very confident because he is aware of the fact that he can make people see exactly what he needs them to. Shriveled Taehyung is tiny and weak and can’t even stand up straight or look people in the eye out of fear of seeing someone looking at him with disapproval or disgust. Red light Taehyung is the part that is meant to be “seen” and shriveled Taehyung is the part that is “not heard”, and being heard is a huge thing for him. That’s why he is so focused on creative expression. He can “be heard” while being “seen” at the same time. You can see “him” through his photography while “hearing” his expression — he just doesn't know how to express himself because the part of him that expresses emotion is nearly dead and curled up on the floor in a closet.
He’s smaller on the inside. Still a kid kind of. Like Kook.
He can grab onto you, but you can’t grab onto him. Like Sag, he’ll have a lot of friends but only a few are actually in the inner circle. Afraid of disappointing his friends, tries to impress. He feels like he’s behind them, like Kook. He wants people to know he’s smart but he doesn’t feel smart, abstract mind, different way of thinking, like Namjoon. Follows Namjoon. Not like Namjoon, wants to be. Virgo - spiritual connection, but that’s not actually what he wants, he doesn’t know that’s what that is, so it’s not easy to grab onto. He just feels like he’s dumb for not getting it, but it’s just that he doesn’t know what IT is. Not for him. (This wasn’t focused on one Taehyung, this was a mixed channel for both of them, which is why it seems to go back and forth between him wanting something and not wanting it, feeling a certain way but feeling the opposite as well.)
There was no face for Jimin because Libra reflects the inner self. Taehyung can see his real self, can be his real self with Jimin with no judgment. He loves Jimin a lot because of that, but Jimin is just one person compare do millions that only see him rather than hear him.
[NOTES END]
That’s all the notes I had left from the meditation before the reading. I actually had A LOT MORE notes compared to the previous readings. They were even more jumbled than Jimin’s were, so it was hell just trying to type out the first half of this potion. Hope it was at least a little bit clear.
This is such a shit read either way though, lol.
Let’s move on!
The Reading
Current State of Core Energy: Dolphin - Water
THIS IS WHAT I’M TALKING ABOUT.
This is Taehyung. This is the core of his core (UPDATED NOTES: this is the shriveled Taehyung), none of that Hannibal Lecter shit (UPDATED NOTES: this is the red light Taehyung) trying to run up on my Pisces self thinking I’m about to expose his ass or some shit. THIS IS TAEHYUNG.
Now, when I first saw this card my first thought was literally “fish out of water” and it made me laugh because it kind of suits it both ways because a Dolphin isn’t a fish, it’s a mammal, so even in the ocean, outsiders (people who don’t know Dolphins are mammals) might think they don’t belong there, but obviously they do! That’s Taehyung’s energy, and I almost felt like this was a parting piece from Taehyung’s energy, like a little call out with the Water energy, as in he himself saying, “I know it doesn’t look good, but I belong here.” Like I said, to a Pisces or a Scorpio, someone having all those faces can be extremely off-putting to the point where they are repulsed by them, they don’t want them around, but he’s saying flat out, “I mean no harm, I belong here.”
UPDATED NOTES: This was literally coming straight from that shriveled Taehyung, not the one that did the creepy shit. After I became aware that he was there I started to block out the creepy red light Taehyung because I assumed that was like a mask that the shriveled Taehyung was wearing, but that’s not the case. They are two very separate things, one of them wears all the face, the other hides in a closet and doesn’t make eye contact.
Also, I was getting shit from MY GUIDES in this. And, yes, I will admit that I’m one of those people that kind of lumps all Caps into one little ball of fuck no and I definitely did that to Taehyung going into this reading. Like, I was expecting it to be a bad reading, and I think he knew that which is why he fucking made sure I struggled through it before ending our conversation by sending out this Dolphin card. Anyway, my guides were being like, “he’s like you, you can’t judge him.” and I was like, “PARDON??”
Basically, after some fucking go-arounds with another deck because, lol, I needed to fucking commune with my guides after that, what I got from it was that he understands people the same way I do — Caps understand people the same way Scorpios and Pisces do. In simple terms, Pisces and Scorpios are good a manipulating people into feeling certain ways, masters of psychological warfare, whereas Caps manipulate in a more “Earth Based” way. Pisces and Scorpios will make you feel, and Caps will make you DO what they want. Opposite sides of the same coin is what they were trying to tell me, so… I GUESS I’ll forgive Taehyung’s energy for putting me in a 2 car garage for an hour and thirty minutes.
UPDATED NOTES: Actually, I won’t forgive that energy because that energy was rank and it wasn’t even him, it’s just a big dense ball of his own ego that he made to keep the shriveled part of him safe from potential ridicule.
Anyway, Taehyung’s core energy is Water-based.
UPDATED NOTES: Not his core energy, it’s part of his core energy. The shriveled bit is made up of Water, but there’s hardly anything there. That’s why he looks so small and shriveled up. He’s like… dehydrated. He has no water, no emotional or creative input or output. He doesn’t have it, but that shriveled part would be the channel he would use in order to express himself and understand people.
I got a lot of artsy vibes from it, a lot of abstract colors, painting. I know he experiments with art a lot so I think that is fueled here, but his confidence in his art, his confidence in saying something through art and being heard is very low. That’s why he looks up to Namjoon so much — Namjoon is an artist that is heard.
Elemental Water Alignment: Stingray - Water
Oh my god, this is actually insane. Just FYI, I’m just now, as I’m typing this, reading the meanings of the cards from the book since it took me a million years to figure out the notes and this goes so well with his core energy. I actually want to cry about it, I don’t know why it made me fucking emotional but it did.
So, his Water Alignment is represented by a Water energy. It’s a lower Water energy, and it is labeled as a “developing energy” as it specifically pertains to the developing of confidence in one's personal sense of self…
Like, it’s a weak energy, it’s just now getting some traction, but it really feels like that fucking Dolphin was so significant now, like he really was saying, “I’m supposed to be here, I’m trying my best.” and now I feel like a mean ass bitch going into his energy expecting the fucking worse. Fucking leave me hate comments in my messages I deserve it omg.
Quite literally, Taehyung is trying to get to himself, get to and fully embrace that self that Jimin sees very clearly and he’s trying to express it. I think he’s really trying to go into himself more and I have no doubt that that is why he has taken up photography and drawing, I’m damn sure painting would be something for him too — it helps him connect to his Water-self, his emotional self, his intuitive self, the spirit. It allows him to detach from the physicality of himself. I also really like the ~poetic nature~ of the fact that he creates art that is visual — photos and drawings, things that are meant to be looked at the way he is looked at — and through those he is trying to be heard.
Now, that’s some self-aware shit, and I’m not kidding I’m actually tearing up a little bit, that’s really fucking dope for Taehyung. That makes me really happy.
UPDATED NOTES: Actually, that’s not very self-aware shit at all. He’s kind of grasping at straws because he is unaware of the fact that he’s repressed shit… which… tends to be how repressed shit works, but you know. He’s aware of something missing, he’s aware of a sensation of not feeling complete, and he’s aware of that fact that he wants to be heard. He has absolutely no idea why, where, or how, so he’s trying anything and everything to “water” that shriveled part of himself without being aware that there is a shriveled part of him and without knowing that Water is what he needs. It’s developing because he’s trying, but it’s more like the seed (shriveled Tae) is getting water from the rain — other people’s water, emotion, creativity — rather than his own watering can, but it’s still not enough. Painting specifically would really help him though. I’ve seen painting being a big thing for him for a while.
Elemental Fire Alignment: Cobra - Fire
Again, this is stemming from his Water base (UPDATED NOTES: Shriveled Tae). It’s really interesting, this card has a lot to do with the “inner teacher”, but specifically it’s more coming from a place of reiterating to yourself the lessons that others have taught you (conditioned thinking, ridicule, what is right and what is wrong to show and express), keeping yourself steady and being aware of your own ups and downs (what is accepted and what is not accepted).
What I saw this as was Taehyung chooses to do a lot of this inner work now because other people (Namjoon, I’m sure) have been doing it as well. He’s seen the positive progress and he wants to experience too. For instance, he took up photography and drawing after being heavenly inspired by other artists. If you recall, a lot of his personal photography is mostly paying homage to Ante Badzim, and a lot of his drawings are recreations of famous painters that he admires. This is kind of what I’m getting here — he’s sort of trying to reach a certain level of inner enlightenment, not really the success, but copying the way he thinks others have done it.
Really, I don’t think he’ll ever be super satisfied or get what he’s after (I don’t think he actually knows what he’s trying to do with this) because what he’s trying to reach can only be done in a personal way, like you can’t take the same path as someone else and expect to fill their footprints the same way… you know what I mean? It needs to be a unique and personal form of growth. But like I said with the stingray, it is just in its beginning stages, he’s just enjoying the fact that he can creatively express himself, create things that he doesn’t have to put on his body. (he used to rip up clothes as a form of expression, remember? Something people could look at on him?? It makes so much sense in my head omg)
UPDATED NOTES: The satisfaction is coming from this sense of trying to do something and being proactive. He also has a subconscious sense that what he is doing is basically making him more like them. So, satisfaction is coming from a feeling of assimilation on a conscious level, while the dissatisfaction is coming from a feeling of a lack of progress being made as there really isn’t a lot of creative expression coming through.
I think as he continues on with it, he will find something that is a bit more personal, something that is much more fulfilling for him on a personal level. I keep seeing abstract paintings specifically, and really, that would be so great for him. It’s nothing structured by other peoples’ ideas of what it should be (how a photo is framed, the rule of 3rds, anatomy) it’s just pure expression. And we know he does have a very abstract mind, he’s been made fun of since they debuted for saying weird things, or having weird ideas, communicating “normal” things in weird ways — painting could allow him to do that without actually having to speak it.
Elemental Earth Alignment: Panther - Fire (Rev)
Yikes.
So, the Elemental Earth Alignment is meant to show the state of alignment in regards to physicality, the body, connection to their surroundings, and self-awareness. This card here, when reversed, is only labeled as “self-destructive”. In a way, it makes sense if you consider the fact that all of those faces that Taehyung has — they’re all him. They’re not really “masks”, they’re all his face.
What I see when I try to dwell on this card for Taehyung is a piece of paper being torn up into a bunch of tiny little pieces. It’s not really creating a bunch of little pieces, it’s just creating a broken piece of paper… if that makes sense.
Also, this feels really stagnant, like it’s not really moving energy. Obviously, the faces are there already, he’s not currently creating them, he’s already done it. So in terms of this being self-destructive, it’s kind of already happened. His state of connection to his body, to his physicality, to his self-awareness is already broken apart and he will need to put it all back together before he’s able to reach any kind of self-awareness.
I assume that’s why he’s currently “following” other people —- copying other people’s work, trying to do things just as they do them — it’s because he doesn’t fully know himself anymore, not enough to know what HE needs to do in order to express himself or connect to himself internally, especially when there’s nothing to really connect to.
It’s a little confusing, but hopefully, it makes a little bit of sense. I’m trying to piece this together as I go.
UPDATED NOTES: Actually, Past Me, it’s not confusing. Again, this is still coming from the Shriveled Taehyung perspective, this is the part of the core that has chosen to disconnect and isolate itself, that has chosen to give all of the control to this red light Taehyung who wears all of the faces. This part of Taehyung’s core is now pretty much a “repressed memory” on the conscious level of things. This shriveled part of him literally is like locked up in a little cupboard in this garage place, curled up with his back to the door. He’s not connecting by choice, but this lack of connection has caused him to not have any of that Water energy stimulated and since that’s basically all this part is, he’s shriveling up. He tore things apart because his sensitive emotions (Water) towards other people ridiculing his expression (Water) caused him to just lump all that shit together (WATER) and shove it in a closet and forget about it. Then, everything that was left, mostly Earth and Fire, was balled up and made to just tear up the personality and expand on the individual faces that he created, so that ridicule wouldn’t be easy to come by as he had a face for everyone. He could satisfy everyone by being what they wanted him to be. Then his emotional center was protected and he could proceed with confidence.
Elemental Air Alignment: Camel - Fire (Rev)
Yikes again.
So, his Air Alignment is represented by a reversed Fire energy which… is complicated. For me, Air and Fire are always balanced, but this here is an animal that carries water, literally and energetically speaking. There are negative emotions and low self-esteem (dark water) influencing his ability to act and express himself fully (fire), and these two things are wrapped up in and are heavily influencing the way he communicates with people and even himself (air).
Taehyung is a complicated person, but I supposed he would be with the whole 700 faces thing…
This alignment does tie in with the “torn up piece of paper” thing, not being able to communicate with others because he can’t communicate with himself.
UPDATED NOTES: Yeah, it ties in the same way all Air + Water + Fire imbalances do, lol. Basically, at some point he consciously thought he needed to change, he needed to be better and he needed to please the audience. I would assume when he started letting people know publicly that the “alien Tae” and the “4D” jokes were hurting his feeling was when he started doing that. When Air, Water, and Fire mix together in a weird way it usually shows someone who is acting from a place of emotional distress, but they think they are handling things in the most logical way possible. Such as Taehyung consciously deciding he needs to pretty much become a different person because of people not looking at him the way he is used to being looked at even though HE WANTED TO BE LOOKED AT DIFFERENTLY, which causes so much confusion and emotional distress that he literally induces trauma on himself and suppresses that part of himself, enough so that now as he’s trying to reconnect, he doesn’t even know what he’s trying to connect to… COMPLICATED.
Higher Self Core Alignment: Hawk - Air
BITCH!!
Taehyung’s core alignment, I have no fucking doubt, is Taehyung’s dream come true. I mean, he’s definitely not anywhere near it at the moment, but if he were to continue on with this inner work as he has been, if he were to really piece things back together internally and find ways to really express himself, grow his confidence in it, this is where he’ll be.
I’m going to include the full description of this card here:
“Watchful, All-Seeing, Messenger of Divinity — The sharp eyes of the Hawk watch our every move. This keen-eyed bird has the ability to see every little detail as well as the bigger picture. When this card appears, fate has its eyes on you, and the winds are shifting. It is said that the Hawk carries news upon its wings and is send from divinity itself to deliver it. The message should not be taken lightly… though it may seem small or insignificant, it will eventually redirect your course.”
Okay, so ~revelation~ here — back to my guides saying that Taehyung is “like me so I shouldn’t judge him…
I bet he is, he fucking has to be! He has to be in order to know how to blend into places, he would have to be able to read people to know what he needs to show them… I see you. >.>
No, but seriously, there is so much here for this card, there is so much fucking energy. Like, real talk, I used to be very concerned with how people saw me, what they thought of me, and I used to pull some of this 700 face shit back in the day. I literally would read people, I would analyze them to figure out how to be liked by them and that was how I fucking figured out that I could read a lot more than just their body language or facial expressions. People who are natural observers tend to be intuitive to some extent in general. I mentioned in Jin’s reading that he himself is an observer and because of that he is able to “see” the energetic connections between people, it’s literally part of his life purpose.
If I were to drag in some predictive reading into this, I would say that painting seriously is supposed to be part of Taehyung’s life, storytelling through visual work, photography and visual art within his music as well could be part of that. He’s meant to go through this part of his life in a state of observation, that’s why it’s something he struggles with, he’s not comfortable being like this and it’s because he’s learning from it. He’s learning from the struggle of literally having ripped himself apart to fit the mold for other people.
When he comes out of it and he has himself put back together in the future (this will take YEARS to do) he will definitely be a true artistic soul with the ability to fully communicate his abstract ideas with the world in a way where there is no judgment, only open-mindedness, and understanding.
BTW, Namjoon’s higher self is the Crow… that might be another reason why Taehyung looks up to him, they have similar soul paths but Namjoon legit came out of the womb aligned with the higher self, he’s much more developed with it.
UPDATED NOTES: Basically, yet again, Taehyung and Kook mirror each other with how they connect to Namjoon and how they are meant to be taking on his energy in order to progress. Kook needs to take on Namjoon’s energy to turn his energy outward, and Taehyung needs to take on Namjoon’s energy to turn his energy inward… interesting… that annoys me greatly. Like, I swear, if you just mashed those two together you would get a full person with fully balanced alignments and a stable connection that would have them perfectly balanced between the conscious and unconscious mind, as well as the physical and non-physical.
UPDATED NOTES: Also, this is relating to the need to regain the more logical thought process and to pretty much stop doing shit, stop trying to connect by doing all these physical things and just sit and think. Like, he actually needs to remember himself and shit, and he can’t do that when he’s all up in other peoples’ emotions and creative outlets trying to be them. He literally has so much room to grow and express himself, and he could be an amazing artist with any medium, but he needs fuel for that and all his fuel is drying out in a closet.
Final Thoughts (From July 10th)
This was a fucking ride and a half, wasn’t it?
I’m not kidding, I’ve had this reading “finished” and sitting in my notebook since the 1st of July. It was supposed to go out last week but I just fucking could NOT get the notes from the Pre-Reading meditation to make any fucking sense. And I usually like to save reading the cards for when I actually got type this up, so I couldn’t get any help from that, but lol, as you can see that definitely helped clear things up.
Although, I do kind of like the fact that this reading, from start to finish, you can really see how I went from thinking of Taehyung one way to see him for who he really is, and I think that’s really fucking important and lends SO MUCH to the reading itself. So, maybe it was meant to be fucking difficult to get this reading done. I don’t think it would have been this successful had it not been so hard to get through.
In the beginning, I would have said that I didn’t like this reading, but it’s really changed my view of Taehyung. I’ll be completely honest with you, Tae was my least favorite person in BTS. Not in the sense that I disliked him, but I just always had that sense that if I ever met him in person we just wouldn’t really get along, and then, of course, I did notice him “acting” a lot when he didn’t need to be and that just screamed MANIPULATOR which put me off, and then I found out he was a Cap, so… I just didn’t like him, but after all this I really do. I like him a lot, I have a lot of respect for him. My fucking guides seem to think he’s “like me”, so maybe we would get along somehow after he gets more in touch with himself.
Yeah, good read. A tough read, but a good one.
I hope you enjoyed it!
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