The Internal Alignment of Park Jimin
Subject: Park Jimin, born October 13, 1995 — Libra
Performed: March 12, 2020
Original Post Date: March 31, 2020
Video Version Uploaded: August 26, 2021
Spread: Internal Alignment, original design by BlueMoonPunch
Deck: Wisdom of The Oracle by Colette Baron-Reid and Guardian Tarot by Beth Seilonen
Time: 1 hours
Details: The Internal Alignment reading is designed to showcase an individual’s current state of alignment with their Internal Energies such as the Higher Self, Soul Urge, and Soul Purpose.
VIDEO VERSION AVAILABLE
Read This For Reference: Relationship Reading for Park Jimin and Jeon Jungkook (P2)
Pre-Reading:
I did this reading the day after I did Jimin’s and Kook’s second relationship reading because I was curious about Jimin’s core state and the current process that he’s moving through and how that actually is playing out on different layers of his awareness. I’m not going to go to into detail about what’s actually happening in his core right now since I kind of over-explained in the relationship reading, so to understand this it would be best to read through Jimin and Kook’s reading. More or less, this should be taken as an extension of that reading.
For this reading, it was less about actually engaging with the core energy again and more about just asking questions in order to understand how this works and why it’s happening like this. I didn’t really get a chance to actually observe the other guys’ internal processes before the separation since it was happening during a time where I intentionally tried to stay out of their cores, so I figured this was my last opportunity to really see how these things function in other people and be able to lay it out for those of you that might be interested in understanding someone else or those of you that may need to know this in order to understand your own progression and development.
For the first bit, I just wanted to make sure I was seeing things correctly or was at least interpreting what I had seen and heard correctly, so I asked to be shown the basic state of Jimin’s core right now in relation to the unconscious awareness.
Just to clarify, I was asking my Guides since they (or at least one) had a much better view and a much better ear in the relationship reading while I was in Jimin and Kook’s cores. Before, especially during the Soul Body nonsense, I would use a communication “system” that basically had my Guides acting as go-betweens between me and the Guides of the guys during important readings. I didn’t want to do that here, at least not intentionally, just because I didn’t know if I could, or if it was even appropriate to do something like that now.
The first two cards came out in an interesting way. One slipped out face down and then after another shuffle the other one slipped out face down and went right over top of the other, perfectly lining up with it. The two cards were the 7 of Cups and The Empress in reverse. The 7 of Cups and The Empress were both very significant cards in the relationships reading for Jimin. The 7 of Cups was shown as this final bit of fog that is in Jimin’s core, this last little shred of odd perception that is slowing things down, while The Empress came out as the highest potential in the relationship, which was actually fully focused on Jimin. Jimin’s highest potential as an individual in terms of his soul progression is The Empress.
Here The Empress is reversed and the 7 of Cups had slipped out on top of her, reflecting that exact core state that was shown in the relationship reading. In short, it was #confirmed that the visuals, the broken communication, and my interpretation and understanding were pretty much on point within this specific area of focus.
Since the soul process within the core, or the core process that is being handled by the soul, is almost entirely unconscious and etheric, I asked how this unconscious process is rooting into the subconscious mind and without the cards, I was getting a solid, “it doesn’t.” Like, 100%, without a doubt, it definitely doesn’t root into or influence the subconscious mind in any way. I wasn’t satisfied with this answer as it explains absolutely nothing, so after like ten minutes of me just rephrasing my question and trying to bamboozle my Guides and getting the same verbal answer over and over again, I was like, shit. What does that even mean? How can Jimin be where he’s at consciously in one process and be somewhere else unconsciously that is balanced through the conscious mind without any subconscious connection? How? Why? Make it make sense.
That’s when the Ace of Wands shot out and I was like, ah… that makes sense.
The Ace of Wands was another card significant to the relationship reading as it was the key representative of Kook’s core energy, his current state on all levels reflecting his independence and personal control. So, basically, Kook is the reason that Jimin’s subconscious mind is not being influenced by the state of his core, and that is how Jimin is able to do two separate processes that are connected but are not actively playing into each other.
The 2 of Cups and 2 of Pentacles came out together as an elaboration on how that’s happening, or what Kook is doing. There the Pentacles are the more superficial conscious level while the Cups are the internal unconscious level, and Kook, in a sense, is the middle man, he is the one holding the two energies on either side, acting as a filter almost to keep things in balance for Jimin. This actually made certain things in the previous reading make a lot more sense, especially when it came to why I had to go through Kook’s core in order to get to Jimin’s core. Not only that, but this kind of balancing and guarding, or even gatekeeping of another person’s core is what Jimin had done for the others while the personal shadow periods were occurring and is how he ended up with the “bones” of the soul body, or the remnants of the others’ old worlds.
All very interesting.
As for Jimin’s conscious state, it’s exactly as expected. He has the 8 of Wands, this very clear, direct, and strong energy and focus being projected towards The Devil in reverse and The Sun. The Sun is another carry-over from the other readings as well as a very prominent symbol for Jimin in a lot of his readings in relation to the “dark sun/light sun cycle” that he has, or had.
The Devil, in a sense, can be looked at as the “dark sun.” It’s reversed, so it’s down, meaning he’s in the light sun mode, and all of that energy of the 8 of Wands is being pushed towards maintaining that. That’s where he is on a conscious level due to the separation which did integrate through the subconscious. The after-effects of the separation have only stayed with the soul because on a soul level, he’s not dealing with the separation as best as he could, but he’s trying to. I think one of the reasons that the soul/core process isn’t be allowed to affect the subconscious is because Jimin’s conscious state is actually fueling the unconscious state. His personal free will, which he got in full force upon separation is what he’s using consciously to stay above The Devil, and that kind of push or confidence in that is actually feeding the soul this will power to push through. It’s still moving slow but for most people, that’s usually how things go.
The Reading:
Where The Higher Self Trying To Take Jimin:
Truth Be Told | Regeneration
I really liked this because the imagery here is so perfectly in line with what I assume the Higher Self’s intentions are for the soul and the core state. In the relationship reading, I talked about how Jimin’s soul is trying to, or wants to build a word of flowers but is experiencing some difficulties. The Higher Self wants him to be able to do that because once conscious Jimin and Soul Jimin are on the same page, Higher Self Jimin can swoop in and take the whole experience to an entirely different realm of existence. Basically, the only intention here is to make sure that Soul Jimin has the full collapse of core, and then rebuilds it as he wants it, which is with all of those flowers.
That is exactly what is being shown in Regeneration and Truth Be Told. Regeneration shows the collapse (the burning ground) and then the actual rebuilding of the core (the tree and the blooming leaves). Truth Be Told shows an owl with its chest opening up like a cage and flower petals are flying out of it. I was seeing it as the final product as if within that cage is the new world of flowers, and at some point, the “truth will be shown,” or Jimin’s core will project outward and we as spectators will be able to see that very clearly. We’ll see that new world, those new inner foundations the same way we have with the other guys — I think Kook was the showiest about it, lol.
Jimin’s Conscious Alignment With The Higher Self:
Knight of Pentacles | Seven of Pentacles
I’M SCREAMING.
I assumed this was going to focus on the soul again, but this is connected more to the conscious mind AND the unconscious soul level and it’s just so fucking great. The Knight of Pentacles is about overcoming fear and facing detriments and either releasing them or integrating them as tools and lessons — it’s shadow work. SHADOW WORK. THERE’S A SHADOW PERIOD IN HIS CORE AND THIS CARD IS ABOUT SHADOW WORK. Love that.
The Seven of Pentacles is even better because it’s about being called into the next phase of progression, whether that be on a soul level or just in the everyday experience. This is his conscious mind, his conscious alignment. The image on the card plays into it really well as the Guardian is shown to be looking up at the Sun, but the Sun is actually a portal. SOUND FAMILIAR????????? That’s literally exactly what it was in the relationship reading. The Sun was on top of the mountain, but the sun actually ended up being this little portal into Jimin’s core. So, it’s like here there’s this conscious level call to really stay up, stay in the sky, stay with the light sun, because, unbeknownst to Jimin, that’s how his soul is able to maintain that steady stride toward processing the collapse and rebuilding the new world in the core. It’s like there’s this slight intuitive knowing that something is happening within himself but he just doesn’t know what it is, but it’s making him happy so he’s trying to hold onto it and move with it.
Does it not just all together flow so seamlessly?
I want to include the image descriptions of these cards for reference:
“Knight of Pentacles: This Guardian embraces her fear, passion, and emotions. Each moment has left their marks upon her, most of which have healed; only the deeper life-changing ones have remained visible. She is a Guardian that one simply does not challenge. She has seen the darker side of the human experience and carries that quiet rage behind her mask of icy contemplation.”
“This Guardian looks to the portal, to what is calling her in the next phase, her next mission in life that needs to be tended.”
The Best Place The Alignment Could Be:
Four of Swords (rev.) | Devil | Seven of Cups
Once again, I am screaming. This is directed more towards the soul, more towards the aspect of alignment found within the Knight of Pentacles. In the relationship reading I talked about how the 7 of Cups there was a show of the last bit of distorted perception that Jimin has within his core, the last bit of fog that is kind of holding the process back a bit and making it hard for him to process certain entities and figures around him which always appear as being massive, like physically huge within his current and previous world.
The reversed Four of Swords is the main message here, and literally, the tiny description says it all:
“In the reverse, you are turning your back from the reality and ignoring all of the signs. It is time to lift the veil from your eyes and see what truly lies before you.”
What truly lies before Jimin within his core is The Devil. The Devil here and The Devil in the energy reading, they’re the same, they carry the same connections to trauma, self-hatred, victimization, and inferiority. That’s what he needs to face, he needs to see them for what they are, or, in my personal theory, he needs to see why HE is MAKING them so big in his world. Also, I think it’s interesting that in the image of The Devil, the Guardian appears really big as well, with their face all up close and hidden behind those branches.
Now for the best part, the Seven of Cups. Once again, the Seven of Cups was a big piece of the story in the relationship reading as it showed Jimin’s perception of the situation within his core and also why he was “lying” about his progress within that rebuilding process. In the previous reading, the 7 of Cups was a detriment, it’s representative of the fog, but here, it’s completely cleared. Once the 4 of Swords lifts the veil, faces The Devil, and makes it out to the other side, the Seven of Cups becomes this space of personal belief and stability.
In the image of the Seven of Cups, the Guardian is holding a “crystal ball” which is meant to represent faith and belief as one, it’s a tool of divination, and two, it’s showing a church on the inside. I was seeing this image as Jimin holding his core, or more so, Jimin having control over his core. If you compare the crystal ball to the portal in Seven of Pentacles (interesting focus on the number 7 as well), the Seven of Pentacles shows a world that is very bare, whereas the Seven of Cups shows actual structures and more color within the world.
The Seven of Pentacles, the conscious mind, is looking up at the potential of an empty world, he is consciously seeing a blank slate while his soul sees a big mess that still needs to be processed, which would be The Devil. The Seven of Cups is like this perfect balance where the creation, the new world, is complete and is being held up, presented, pushed out at the chest, at the heart chakra, just like in Truth Be Told.
How The Alignment Is Currently Manifesting:
Hierophant | Four of Wands | Star
I have no idea how to explain this in full but this is all about the fact that Jimin is currently existing within Kook’s core, or within Kook’s world through that little portal. Once again, the image and the descriptions of these cards play out so perfectly in line with what I was getting in the previous reading, especially the Hierophant.
“Rising above the mountains, the Goddess within, and looking to the horizon, the Hierophant soaks in the beauty and awe of this world. She has become aware of the natural nuances and revels in them.”
That’s literally Jimin sitting at the top of the mountain in Kook’s world on those dumb little lawn chairs and just looking out at Kook’s world, looking out at what he has built and rebuilt and having this sense of encouragement but also this pride, this very deep down pride for Kook but also for himself, in the fact that he did help build that world while he was helping Kook before.
The Four of Wands is interesting as well because it kind of, but not really at all, answers the question that I had about why Jimin was in Kook’s core and not anyone else’s. I did kind of get an explanation but it really only boiled down to “that’s Jimin’s baby,” so of course that would be the first person to open up and help him even after everyone completely separated from the soul body. The card is about eternal lovers, and for the love of god do not get hung up on the word “lovers” because if you do I can guarantee you are going to miss the entire fucking point of all of this, and connections that stay stable even after one person has died. Essentially, I was seeing this as coming through all of those different layers of connections that they have, and I did talk about how the layer they were connecting through was the layer where they are more like a parent and a child.
I feel like I really don’t know how to explain this but I have all this pressure in my head like there’s stuff trying to come out but it’s just not happening omg. It has something to do with the fact that Kook never enters Jimin’s world and Jimin never fully enters Kook’s world, he’s only ever on the mountain. It’s where they meet but they don’t merge, they don’t mix, they stay fully separated as if there is that kind of ghostly sort of mist between them. Does that make sense?
Finally, the Star. The Star is Kook. Specifically, the owl in the image that is giving the Guardian important messages, helping her, guiding her, is Kook. Kook is providing stability and balance but is also literally telling Jimin how to build his world whenever he asks for help.
Everything right here is not about what is manifesting physically or energetically, this is just about how Jimin’s soul is starting to come to terms with the fact that the youngest of the soul body, the first to integrate into a physical form, his baby, is actually a grown-up, and is actually a support system for him. AND I FUCKING TALKED ABOUT THAT BACK IN FUCKING 2018 REGARDING HOW THAT WOULD BE THE FINAL PUSH FOR JIMIN TO HAVE A DAMN BREAKTHROUGH. IT’S RIGHT THERE. IT’S LITERALLY ALL RIGHT THERE.
Seriously, go fucking read all of these posts if you haven’t already:
Lesson Being Learned:
Seven of Wands | Three of Swords (rev.) | Knight of Swords
I’m literally going to throw myself off a bridge because look at this. It’s another 7 first of all, and not only that, but this is the lesson being learned. This is the overall, collective functioning behind this current state and process. Just take a gander at the description of the Seven of Wands in this deck and tell me you don’t want to all fly off a bridge.
“As the butterfly draws closer to this guardian, the ancestor of the past arise, surround, and support him. The wings of the accompanying bird have spread open, protective. He guards against that which may want to hold him to a place that no longer serves him. You are ready to move forward to embrace a new level of self-awareness. This card simply lets you know that your ancestors and symbolic spiritual animal guides have literally “got your back.” Be aware that as you embrace your new self-awareness, there comes a change in your behavior, your manners, and responses to others that may well be perceived as defiance.”
😐
Just to be clear, I was seeing the mention of ancestors as referring to the “bones” that Jimin has been left with, AKA, the remnants of the other 6 members’ old worlds, and I was seeing the “accompanying bird” as Kook, as the owl from the Star. So, one of the major lessons, alongside this process towards deeper self-understanding and personal control, is that he is not the “infirmary” anymore. He is not the only one that is there to take care of the other 6 souls. Now that they are separated, they can take care of him too.
The reversed Three of Swords made me almost start crying because I literally just talked about how that one bit felt like this big bubble of pride in the fact that he had helped build Kook’s world, and I assume there’s some deep-down pride over having had helped build the others’ worlds as well (And the restructuring the whole Soul Body at one point, let’s not forget that). I just talked about that and this card comes out with this damn description and I’m sad about it.
“The reverse of this card can indicate that you may not be ready to let go. Take a deep breath and know that the love and pride stay, but life needs to and must expand.”
Like, I have nothing to go on for this, but what if the reason that bit of fog is still there even though on a soul level he’s incredibly aware of what’s going on is because he literally just doesn’t want to let go of the “bones” of the soul body. Like he has these little fragments of the old body in the form of these remnants of the others’ old cores that he helped rebuild and now that’s literally all he has left of them.
Okay, yeah, I just made myself fucking cry because I’ve been saying for two fucking years that Jimin would have the hardest time with the separation because he was the HEART OF THE BODY. His energy center held everyone together, he healed everyone, he took care of everyone, and now everyone, from his perspective, is just gone. He can’t even connect with Kook the same way. I’m sad.
For more clarification, as I’ve said in about a thousand different posts, with the way their energy balances and needs to balance in order to not merge again, there’s this flip-flop kind of thing that happens where if they’re really close on a soul level, they’ll be far apart on a conscious and physical level. Which means if they are very far apart, or completely separated, on a soul level, they will be closer consciously and physically simply because they can be.
So, this is all perfectly fine, Libra Jimin is just having some trouble coping with being alone in his world.
Lol, actually, the Knight of Swords is about solitude and contemplation towards your outlook and direction in life based on what you as an individual want and need… so… LESSONS TO BE LEARNED. (But, lol, also that bird in the image, in ALL the images, I would assume, could possibly point to Kook just always kind of fucking being there in one way or another as a little messenger because as I recall, Kook never liked being alone either.)
That’s all I have for this one, thanks for reading.
Edit: On may 6th, 2020, I made a connection while working on the video versions of earlier readings, specifically Jimin’s Elemental Alignment. I wrote about it on tumblr first, so I’ll attach it to the end here as well.
From Tumblr Post:
Lol, something just clicked. In Jimin and Kook’s second relationship reading and Jimin’s Internal Alignment reading there’s all that malarky about the flowers and needing to rebuild the core after its collapse, you know? For some funny little reason, I just decided to re-read Jimin’s Elemental Alignment from 2018 and the last bit of it… I mean… I GUESS IT MAKES SENSE NOW, I DON’T KNOW?
I’ll leave it here as just some food for thought if anyone has an interest in the progression of it.
Ending of Jimin’s Elemental Alignment:
“I won’t give any details about specific issues, but what was the most important in the Waist Deep reading is that the only way Jimin can get out of this negative mindset, this negative way of being within himself, is to literally hit rock bottom. There were literal images of fire in that reading, both in the cards and in my mind, images of letting things burn, letting things get destroyed completely. All the fire in this reading here, this cycle that he’s stuck in between letting his “logic” fuel his actions and passion, and letting his action and passion evaporate his emotion, and letting that foggy emotion cloud his logic — all of that is building up into something that could potentially lead to a bigger breakdown, destruction of the self, which would be necessary. I think succumbing to this, learning to let these things be felt, learning to be self-reliant, self-satisfied is part of his life path.
In the Waist Deep reading the image of recovery was literally Jimin coming out of a burned forest where the trees were literally just towers of ash with seeds in his pockets. Scorched, burned, scarred, but with new potential, something new to plant, a new beginning. In order to get there though, like I said, he would have to let this fire burn him, burn everything. He would have to let everything go, like really just let everything burn, let himself burn, let that image in his mind burn, let his need for validation burn. He needs to burn the skin so that he can heal it, break the spine so he can set it straight.
It’s sort of a sad state to be in, very isolating, but he does have a support system. We all know that. He does have people that really love him as he is and they are there to teach him what that actually means, and in spite of everything, I really do see those seeds very clearly, that potential to reach the higher self in this lifetime. It’s just not going to be an easy journey.”